Wishing, and hoping, and thinking, and...dreaming?
Ok, so this may sound silly but I have actually started dreaming about the swim. Generally not warm, fuzzy dreams. This only just started happening. I think when I crossed the 4 month mark it hit me that this is actually going to happen - and it will happen sooner rather than later. 4 months is a short amount of time.... the last year already seems short.
The first dream I had found me getting ready on the beach, only to realize that it was still Aug 15th! I was setting up and ready to go on the wrong morning. And, not only did I already go through the gitters of the swim, I had to go home, try to sleep, and have the gitters again in the morning!
My other dreams have involved ruining my shoulders, or getting hypothermia. There have been a few. I am choosing to believe that this is positive nervous energy that gets turned around when I am sleeping. I am very excited about the event....I wouldn't have made it a goal if I didn't think I'd have some chance of pulling it off. Or maybe I had too many sips of wine - one of the two. Part of the fear is that time is running out and maybe I haven't prepared enough. I don't mean physically. I worry that I am so far away from my fundraising goal, or that I haven't raised enough awareness about MS. The whole point, after all, is to benefit the MS Society, and those suffering from the disease. It's incredible how easily the time slips away.
I still have some small ideas to help me get the word out, and I know that the biggest impact will likely come closer to the swim day. So I guess in the end I am so incredibly nervous for August 16th, and so incredibly excited at the same time! I hope that at the end I will have some energy to stay awake and take in the challenge that I have (hopefully) successfully completed. And I hope I have the smarts to take a week or two off before getting back in the pool!